This nursy plays dirty and does it with pain...

Saturday, September 13, 2008

Free as a bird or two...

I always say that if ever I were to come back to earth in another lifetime ... that I would like to come back as a bird. I see a bird as a carefree being. Flying free... however, whichever, wherever, whatever ... it wants to.

There it is with its wings all spread out letting the wind blow ... away the broken dreams. Blow away the sadness and hopelessness. Blow away the madness and frustrations. Blow away the heartaches and mental anguish.

And embrace the hopes of tomorrow. Embrace the new promises and the new dreams. Embrace what there will be..

Would it not be wonderful to soar up in the sky and drop down and away all the baggage that I've been carrying in my life and in the part of my heart that is broken? And land on solid ground and start anew...

How about you? What would you like to be in your other lifetime???

Thursday, August 14, 2008

My absence... apologies

I am one of those that know not to get started on something that will preoccupy me for a long period of time. I tend to "get hooked" on whatever that is and end up neglecting everything else around me. That obsessive personality of mine pops up and take over. Let's say, a book of my interest. If I start reading a book and really get into the nitty gritty of it, I have the tendency to not put it down until I finish reading the very last page of it. And so therefore while in the process of the engrossed reading, I will not look up, well, maybe once in a while, just long enough to see the right spot to sit on the toilet... hehehe!!! until I finish that book.

So I have never ever seen any reality shows nor any soap operas because I already know that if I ever get started on any of them that I will not be at peace with myself if I miss any episode so I don't even try to get started.

And so therefore my excuse, as lame as it is, for not blogging for a while... is just that. My focus was somewhere else that I wanted to work and flourish but as luck would have it... did not work.
Oh well!!!

So now, I am taking a break from my heartbreaks and see if I can somehow share some of my "sleeping" thoughts and ideas for this neglected blogspot of mine... shame on me!!!

Move onward!!

Friday, May 23, 2008

Fidelity ... my take on it!!!

In the matters of the hearts, many variables come into play that make a relationship more challenging. The differences of the man and the woman in the relationship, just as being a man and as a woman - you know, that deal about Man from there and Woman from the other there... complicate the relationship as it is. We are not even going into the outside influences that add to the roller coaster ride in the relationship.

My ex-marriage was not the greatest but fidelity or I should say infidelity never came into play even in the worst of it.

My first personal encounter of this subject, infidelity that is, was when I decided to try a go of another relationship after many years of being alone. The man I thought that could be the second man in my life committed infidelity on his partner of many years. I was deceived, made to believe that he was not in any other relationship beside ours. Come to find out, he was already in a relationship for many years and was still in that relationship when he started chasing me. Eventually, my gut feelings lead me straight into the truth that I was seeking althrough the period of our relationship.

I was glad that I flew over in his world and saw things with my very own eyes... infidelity !!!

Another disguise of this act came into play in my life. The question or challenge that was brought to my senses... how could there be an infidelity when the third party is several thousand miles away???

Good question!!! My concern about this is the emotional effect and hold that the third party has even if she is several miles away. The lies, deceits, sneaking around befits infidelity... my opinion anyway. When I am in a relationship, I choose to be in it and give my all. And expect the same back.... Is that so wrong???

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Has it been that long???

March 25,2007... I just looked back at my very first post on here and shook my head in disbelief!!! Over a year ago had gone by. My dear girlfriend from Arizona who is also a blogger on here sweetly talked me into starting my very own blogspot... and here I am.

What I enjoy the most on visiting my own blogspot is looking at the list of the visitors that come and stop by at this humble spot. Unbelievable!!! People from all over the world have come and read my thoughts and opinions. How neat is that??? I just wish that they would make their visits known.

I have slowed down with my postings for several personal reasons. I would like to try to start posting more.

I hope you are all having a great spring and summer soon!!! I have been in the pool lately...

Monday, February 25, 2008

A Meme Tag: 5 THINGS...

I decided to take on this meme from my girlfriends ... Belle's and Elyani's blogspots.

5 Things Found In My Bag

  • cellphone

  • wallet

  • make-up kit

  • emergency medicines

  • gums

5 Things Found In My Wallet

  • nursing cards - license, certificates

  • money

  • green "lucky" stone

  • plastic money(s)

  • other cards... Starbucks, Costco, Safeway

5 Things found in my room

  • threadclimber machine
  • mattress pad heater
  • CalKing bed
  • alarm clock/CD player

5 Things I always want to do

  • be a tourist in the Philippines

  • a trip to Gallapagos Island

  • create a secret garden

  • across the country drive in a Mercedes SLK

  • meet in person all of my cyberfriends

5 Things I’m Currently Into

  • school

  • my son

  • home projects

  • 2 volunteer projects

  • a professional change

Sunday, February 10, 2008

Not just a matter of the HEART

February 14, Valentine's Day, the day that lovers express their love for each other by sending card, candy and or flowers. According to my favorite source of information Wikipedia, the holiday is named after Valentine, a Christian martyr. The day became associated with romantic love in the circle of Geoffrey Chaucer in High Middle Ages, when the tradition of courtly love flourished.

Gone are the days though of handwritten LOVE notes and replaced them with mass-produced greeting cards, making the day the second largest card-sending holiday of the year behind Christmas.

My own personal story on this year's heart day is that I got to celebrate it with a wonderful man. He started it by sending these sweetness the day before the celebration of the hearts...

Then off to the dinner concert of Etta James the following day. The drive to the Bay Area was all worth it. It was such a beautiful night, a great concert, with a wonderful company.

Wednesday, January 9, 2008

2008 - another beginning. A look at New Year's history

According to Wikipedia: New Year is originally observed on March 15 in the old Roman Calendar. New Year's Day first came to be fixed in January 1, 153 BC, when the two Roman consuls, after whom - in the Roman calendar - years were named and numbered, began to be chosen on that date, for military reasons.

New Year's Day is the first day of the year. On the modern Gregorian calendar, it is celebrated on January 1, as it was also in ancient Rome (though other dates were also used in Rome). In all countries using the Gregorian calendar, except for Israel, it is a public holiday, often celebrated with fireworks at the stroke of midnight as the new year starts. January 1 on the Julian calendar corresponds to January 14 on the Gregorian calendar, and it is on that date that followers of some of the Eastern Orthodox churches celebrate the New Year.

Since the 1900s has become an occasion for celebration the night of December 31, called New Year's Eve. There are often fireworks at midnight. Depending on the country, individuals may be allowed to burn fireworks, even if it is forbidden the rest of the year.

It is also a memorable occasion to make New Year's resolutions, which they hope to fulfill in the coming year; the most popular ones in the western world include to stop tobacco smoking or drinking alcohol, or to lose weight or get physically fit.

I have never been good about making New Year's resolutions. I guess because I hate to set myself up for disappointments. I do try to make some mental notes about I might try doing different in regards to my behaviors or ways of life or a "must to do this year". This way I have them in my brain and yet not putting any pressure on myself in making them happen.

2008, according to my Feng Shui calendar is a great year for a metal rat like me...

We will see!!!

I hope you all had a wonderful celebration. And that you have your positive chi with you in welcoming 2008...